Slacker

I'm bad, very bad at this whole blogging thing. I admit it, I've been slacking, using the whole "new baby" excuse....okay, okay, but at least I'm here trying to make an effort now right?

Everly is 3 months old and we've settled into somewhat of a routine, she usually goes down for a nap in the afternoon that honestly could last anywhere from 40mins-2 hours (if I'm lucky!).  She's laying in her sleeper next to me (thank God for a baby that can sleep in a noisy room!) and every once and a while I'll notice her little eyes flutter open or she'll squeal and my heart stops a bit. The worst is when I'm in the middle of a mountain of a task, such as folding piles of laundry or washing stacks of dishes, and then I hear the squeaks which inevitably turn into crying which means "I need a diaper change and then you need to feed me!". But I can't complain she's a beautiful, healthy, silly, great baby and I'm honored to be her mother. She's taught me a lot about myself and life in such a short time.

I'm going to give sort of a quick overview of what's been going on in our lives these past 3 months. They have been exhausting, exhilarating, rewarding and the happiest months of my life. Everly was born in February and you can read all about that labour and delivery experience in my previous blog post. The first few weeks of being a new mom were definitely and obviously the hardest. It was like going through culture shock, I kept thinking to myself oh the weekend is coming up I get to sleep in - NOPE, forget about sleep for a few months you've got a baby that needs to be fed, rocked, burped and most importantly loved. One thing motherhood taught me was that I'm incredibly selfish, guilty, I'm a selfish human being and being a mom you've got to throw your problems out the window. The world doesn't revolve around me, it never has, I may have just been blinded to it before. I will admit to wishing and praying for an extra hour of sleeping, grumbling to myself when she woke up while I was in the middle of a deep sleep, maybe secretly (okay not secretly) wishing my husband could lactate for just one day so he could feed her throughout the night and maybe resenting him a little for being able to sleep through all her noises and cries throughout the night.

Week one was hard, as I knew it would be, I desperately wanted to go home from the hospital but Everly's jaundice was on the verge of being bad and it was causing her not to be interested in breastfeeding. I will say I have NO shame anymore, I don't know how many differently people checked my "swelling and stitches", asked if I'd had a bowel movement and touched my boobs. The nurses at Lakeridge hospital are fantastic and helped Mike and I out with a lot. I did think my motherly instincts would kick in more and the crazy change in hormones made me a basket case. We took Everly to our family doctor the day after we were discharged from the hospital, he wasn't concerned about her jaundice but wanted us back the next week to check her weight. She started breastfeeding and started gaining weight! Oh joy! Little did I know next we'd venture into the dreaded Thrush....we've had it going on 11 weeks now....what a pain in the butt that is! We've tried nystatin, two rounds of gentian violet, I've had canesten cream and been prescribed diflucan, I've rubbed coconut oil, baking soda and vinegar on my nipples (TMI?) and yet it's sticking around. I've come to the conclusion we'll have it until I'm done breastfeeding her....it will go away eventually.

Everly started smiling at 5 weeks old and that made EVERYTHING, the sleepless nights, the crying, the blowouts, everything, worth it. Seeing her smiling up at me literally made my heart burst. Okay not literally, that would be bad. Now if we could only get her to start laughing. She has giggled once, just once, for Mike. She's rolled over twice since Mother's Day and is now actually starting to talk to us and grasp at things. She's also started to feel the pressure from her teeth and starting to chew on things and get rosy cheeks. And she's starting to sleep an average of 7 hours a night! HOORAY!

But I digress, I doubt you're interested in every single event in Everly's life...I'm just here to say I've grown more in three months than I ever thought I would. I'm changing every day as Everly has been changing and I can't wait to see what the future has in store.

I promise, pinky promise, that I'll do better. I'll write more I swear. I actually have a post coming up on my current favorites beauty and skincare products. Mike and I have been watching a lot of Shaytards, Sacconejolys and hannahmaggs on youtube and we've decided to start vloging. Just for ourselves and to make sure we get these precious moments caught on film. I think we'll start that when we move into our new house, we can chronicle home rennos, and our growing baby girl!

Thanks for baring with me, expect more from me coming up soon....I know I always say that but I actually mean it this time.

*She says while crossing her fingers*